The below audio recording is an auditory transcript of this essay I’ve got my earbuds in and his voice – soft, yet rough, my favourite tempo – fills my ears. I could hear him speak for days, would listen to…
Category: Personal
Leave the Orgasms at the Office
You know the saying “do what you’ll love and you’ll never work a day in your life”? Well, if you’ve ever tried following that saying, you’ll know that, inevitably, that thing you love…becomes your work, it becomes something that you…
Broken Pieces
TW: chronic health, eating disorders, images featuring needles I like to joke that I’m a collection of slightly broken parts. It’s a joke except it isn’t. It’s one of those things you say with a laugh because if you say…
I Just Really Hate Conferences
TW chronic health, food, eating disorders, income/money On face value, conferences seem like something that I would enjoy. There’s so much opportunity to learn and practice different skills, a bunch of your friends, probably a pool or lake to swim…
Healing from Trauma
TW description of sexual/assault, trauma, mental illness, self harm, intrusive thoughts, gay slurs, slurs toward sex workers, non self-inflicted cutting, death threats, nonconsensual age play, suicidal thoughts, suggested necrophilia, nude photos, photos of implied (but not actual) cutting I haven’t…
Endings
CW: mentions of Daddy/boy kink. I broke up with a partner this year. The relationship had been over for a while and both of us were at fault, as is normally the case. But we didn’t want to accept it…
Collars
“I was wondering…” I began nervously, trying to control my voice in order to appear more relaxed than I actually was. “How would you feel about me having, you know, a thing. Of yours. That I could wear around my…
Falling Back in Love: a Romance with Rope
It’s weird to think that I had “a relationship” with rope, but it feels like it. I fell in love with rope the way I do with people; intensely, overwhelmingly, obsessively, make-it-my-world kind of love. I practiced at least once a…
What the Heck IS Gender Affirming, Anyway?!
The way people think about gender is SO weird. The way I think about gender, even my own, is confusing and strange. I began my transition about seven years ago – a lifetime for some, no time for others. I…
Rope Bondage: My Introduction
Earlier this year, I fell in love with rope bondage. I quickly became obsessed with the act of tying; the feel of the rope against my skin coupled with a tactile thing to do with my hands and something with…