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A Winning Persona

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on October 28, 2019October 28, 2019

Years ago, I began developing this persona. More than half a decade has past since then, and I’ve ended up in a wildly different place than I expected to when I started. When I created “Taylor”, all I was after…

relax, trust, breathe

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on July 18, 2019

CW: abuse Present. Facebook memories remind me about anniversaries; things I know are approaching but I don’t remember the specific date until I see it pop up under the cheery “on this day” header. Every year they sneak up on…

Fucking Closure

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on May 20, 2019July 19, 2019

I visited an ex the other night – we’ve seen each other a few times since the break up, and it’s been awkward, distant, lonely, but nice, I guess, that we were able to exist in the same space together….

Indigo (left) and Taylor (right). both are naked, shown from the chest up. they're laughing, faces covered in whipped cream and pieces of pie.

Food Fight!

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on May 13, 2019May 13, 2019

Sometimes things don’t work out as planned or as hoped. Sometimes too many roommates being around stops a scene. Sometimes sudden illness, surprise visitors, or conference stressors do. Sometimes a scene takes about a year to actually come into fruition….

A road with some scraggly trees in the background. The sky is a bright blue and sunny

Write Some Dang Words Already!

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on May 5, 2019May 4, 2019

The start of the year saps the creative life from my bones, takes my words and vision and grinds it to a halt. It’s always been this way. I’ve always put the blame on a wicked case of seasonal affective…

Speak // Swallow Me Whole

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on March 4, 2019April 14, 2019

The below audio recording is an auditory transcript of this essay I’ve got my earbuds in and his voice – soft, yet rough, my favourite tempo – fills my ears. I could hear him speak for days, would listen to…

Taylor, a pale red head, stands against a blank wall at an angle, shown from the armpits up. His chest is showing and his head is tilted down and away from the camera, lips slights parted. His hair is fully shaved on the side and back; long and dark on the top, falling over his left eye and he's wearing black glasses and a black leather harness with thin buckled straps going over his shoulders.

Leave the Orgasms at the Office

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on December 3, 2018July 19, 2019

You know the saying “do what you’ll love and you’ll never work a day in your life”? Well, if you’ve ever tried following that saying, you’ll know that, inevitably, that thing you love…becomes your work, it becomes something that you…

Taylor stands on a wooden deck, just one leg and their hand in the frame. They're wearing jeans and winter boots and holding a black colapsable cane.

Broken Pieces

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on September 10, 2018July 19, 2019

TW: chronic health, eating disorders, images featuring needles I like to joke that I’m a collection of slightly broken parts. It’s a joke except it isn’t. It’s one of those things you say with a laugh because if you say…

Siz conference badges from 2016 to 2018. They are either marked as a presenter badge, or from a conference that I presented at.

I Just Really Hate Conferences

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on August 20, 2018April 14, 2019

TW chronic health, food, eating disorders, income/money On face value, conferences seem like something that I would enjoy. There’s so much opportunity to learn and practice different skills, a bunch of your friends, probably a pool or lake to swim…

Closeup of the back of Taylor's forearm showing a blue whispy tattoo. Their other hand is squeezing their arm, fingers digging in to the area where the tattoo is. You can see trees and a post in the background.

Healing from Trauma

Posted by feistyfoxfilms on August 6, 2018July 19, 2019

TW description of sexual/assault, trauma, mental illness, self harm, intrusive thoughts, gay slurs, slurs toward sex workers, non self-inflicted cutting, death threats, nonconsensual age play, suicidal thoughts, suggested necrophilia, nude photos, photos of implied (but not actual) cutting I haven’t…